Fully Exposed: My Commitment to Fitness

What a great morning! Today was my first day of committing to a fit lifestyle.  This day comes after years of inconsistency and months of complete (as in, totally null and void) absence from the gym.  I honestly couldn’t tell you the first time I decided to start exercising – to be a part of the “in” crowd that cares about their health and appearance.  I do remember that it began with just a thought to myself: I would love to regularly attend a gym.  Then, I worked up the nerve to sign up for a gym membership months later. Since then, I’ve had a love/hate relationship with the equipment, the sweat, and the discipline of sticking with it.  I now see that because I didn’t have any real goals, I would start and stop, but today, I am committing to making it a lifestyle once and for all.

I decided to commemorate this day by taking some pictures of myself before I started working out.  (You could say that I spent a little too much time to get the right pose.) After tucking in my stomach and flexing a few areas, I was ready to snap the camera. Yes, I liked what I saw in the mirror – the image that I manipulated.

Even as I look at these pictures now, I can’t help but remember what happened just thirty minutes prior to this moment.  I took some pictures at home behind the bathroom door – the real image of me. The exposed me.  This was the “me” I wouldn’t dare show anyone, let alone post it to the internet.

The number of times that I have hidden the real me from the world is too numerous to count.  I literally spent my entire life putting on a facade of who I wanted others to see, not who I really am.  From imperfections to insecurities, I hid everything and was comfortable with doing so because it was the safer choice. This is bigger than my appearance.  It goes deep down to my soul.  That stops today.

I firmly believe that if you don’t like something about yourself, you should change it.

  • I didn’t know how to cook, so I learned
  • I didn’t like the fact that I was driven by my emotions, so I studied on new habits of dealing with life
  • I wanted to travel more, so I saved money to do so

And now, I am not satisfied with the pictures above, so I am committing to changing it.  No more manipulated selfies.  Just the real me.

This journey towards a fitness lifestyle represents my journey towards being pleased with the woman staring back at me at all times,  especially behind closed doors.



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Elana Cole is a writer, educator, and professional coach who is passionate about helping others in their personal journeys towards a more beautiful life. She is the author of "The Midnight Experience" and creator of Empowered Narrative, a blog about transforming the way you live and love.

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