Recently, I posted a prayer about my desperation for a breakthrough in something I was dealing with. (Just for context, I realized that if I’m going to overcome trials, I must write during my most vulnerable emotions.)
Keeping with the spirit of vulnerability, I should also admit that after I prayed that prayer, I was too unfocused and upset with my situation to even receive the answers from God that I was seeking. So, I just went to bed that evening and hoped for a better tomorrow.
It essentially took me a day and a half to calm down and become focused – to actually be ready to listen for God’s words and not just wait for Him to tell me what I wanted to hear. In my attentiveness, I was given a reality check: The storm in front of me was a storm I created? Wow, I certainly wasn’t ready to hear that two days ago.
Now that the winds and the rain have subsided, I can see the bigger picture now. I was drowning in my own emotions (dramatic language, but quite true) at the time that I started questioning my faith walk. But, what I failed to realize in the moment, or any moment for that matter, is that it was never about whether or not God can calm the storm; rather, it is about my contribution to the havoc around me.
I’m a little embarrassed to admit that I even got so down over my situation, but it was real. I do believe, though, that life is about making peace with your internal dialogue and moving forward. So, here’s what that looks like in this situation:
- Standing still in the storm means to accept and let go of what is out of my control. Well, this is where I admit that I have a problem with being in control. To trust means to relinquish control. It’s only then that breakthroughs have room to occur.
- I must make a conscious effort to line up what I can control with God’s will. God cannot bless what is not in His will. It’s as simple as that. Instead of running from it, turn it over to Him. The storm I created was caused by my lack of obedience.
- Remember His promises. Scriptures remind me that God’s promises still reign true on His timing, not my own. The sooner I realize that, the sooner I can have peace.
Understanding the above doesn’t mean that storms won’t ever return. It does mean that my awareness will increase and my ability to push through will be stronger. Rather than praying for God to calm the storm, I’m now praying for strength and awareness in the middle of it.